For Love and Rememberance
Fantasy Island Stage
-July 12, 2011-

This Wishing Well is dedicated to:
Angel Bristol a.k.a. Hijiri whom many of us knew and loved. We lost you so suddenly our Angel.
Kelly, Wulfric's sister who ended her long battle with cancer. Our thoughts go to your family Kelly

Thank you to Jeffery Bristol, Angel's dad for giving me permission to use her picture :)

Zaphne: Tonight we are here for many reasons. Stories, songs, poems, yes, but also
to honor some we have lost. I have two requests reguarding this...
the first, tonight I'd like to ask that we disarm ourselves for tonight's well,
in honor of those lost, the other request, if you have anything to say reguarding
our departed, please whisper me and I'll add you. It doesn't have to be a poem,
or a song, or even rhyme, just speak from your heart. I think I'll start off with
a poem, to me death isn't the end at all, and this poem represents that to me.
I hope you like it.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,

Bye Mary Elizabeth Fry
Performed by: Zaphne

-opens her book to read aloud-

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there.
I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond's glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there.
I do not sleep.

-closes her book and courtseys, wiping a tear-

After Zaphne's beautiful intro for the Well, Shadowdancer lead us with an invocation.
It was somber and beautiful. Thank you Shadowdancer ^.^

PRAYER FOR A VERY NEW ANGEL
By Violet Alleyn Storey
Performed by: Shadowdancer

-clears throat-

God,God, be lenient her first night there.
The bed she slept in was so near my bed;
Her blue and white wool blanket was so soft,
Her pillow hollowed so to fit her head.
Teach me that she'll not want small rooms or me
When she has You and Heaven's immensity!
I always left a light out in the hall.
I hoped to make her fearless in the dark;
And yet, one little light,
Not in the room, it scarcely mattered. Hark!
No,no; she seldom cried! God, not to far
For her to see, this first night, O, light a star!
And in the morning, when she first woke up,
I always kissed her on her left cheek where
the dimple was. And oh, I wet the brush,
It made it easier to curl her hair.
Just... just tomorrow morning, God, I pray...
When she wakes up, do things for her my way!

Abriel mentioned to me once that it's hard to get emotional, but this song usually does it.
I looked it up and listend, it was beautiful, and yes brought a tear to my eye

From My Hands
By VNV Nation
Performed by: Abriel

So much I thought I'd have to say
Though I try to speak, my meaning strays.
We can't avoid the facts that brought us here.
I have come to say goodbye.
The lies I try to tell with my own eyes;
An act of pride, a willful compromise.
Please understand how torn I am
When I walk away from here.
I lament the moments we won't share.
If I am far too sentimental, I apologize.
Please understand this is who I am
And who I'll still be when I've walked away from here.
You know I'm not unkind
When I say in the future,
The past is just the past.
No going back,
No change of heart
But this is now,
Time will not differ.
My thoughts betray, so easily confess
How long I'll wait here after you have gone.
Nothing ends but I don't believe that now
Please don't walk away from here.
I went alone and I remember days.
Nothing will change a single fact of who you were to me
Oh, come what may, forever to the end
I find it so hard to let you go.
And hush now, let it go now
There's no need for sad goodbyes.
Hush now, let it go now
I know it's time to go.
Time to let this fall from my hands

Cammy had some words of comfort that her friend would share with her. It was insprirational ^.^!

Performed by: Cammy

God cares for you and will never give up on you
You are valuable and precious in God's eyes
Life can sometimes be challenging
But things will always get better
I can tell that you don't think very highly of yourself
If you understand the love of god your life can dramatically change

Jerimiah 29:11 says
"For all I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD"
plans to propser you and not harm you
plans to give you hope and to a future
God is not upset with you, he doesn't look down on you
He only has good thoughts and plans towards you
God has never thought a bad thought about you
Please do yourself a favor and stop thinking negatively about yourself
Start saying things about yourself that are positive
and agree woth what God said about you
Even if you don't believe it right now think upon
those things and you will change your mind.
The Bible says to think on things that are positive
and to love yourself the way God wants you to
Remember, many people have had setbacks and hard times
and many people have come through with a comeback
Don't believe the lies that life can't get any better
The truth is your life will get better
and God has good thoughts and plans towards you
You haven't lived your best days yet!
Just think positive and you will get positive!
^-^

I started writing a villanelle for Angel because it's a every melodic style of poetry.
She also loved creative writing so I hope she would have liked this.
I know it's rather somber and while my memories of her are all happy and funny even,
I just needed to say goodbye in my way, even if it is in one of my EmoEmi poems ^.^

Angel's Bells
Written by: Emirra

I fell inside a deep dry well
And every nothing that came by
Would ring against my silent bell.

I sat amongst my inky hell
The only light would burn and fry
In this obscure and deep dry well.

And then my life line, my Angel
My crystal soul arrived nearby
And rang the chimes of every bell.

And then proceeded to dispel
The inky layers in which I cry
And pulled me out this deep dry well.

And through the chaos we three dwell
But then the water shut the sky
And said to silence now your bell.

So to you my dearest Angel
I now am forced to say goodbye
And live away from deep dry wells
I ring for you a cheerful bell.

During his performance, Rhain had to honor those we remembered with a bang!
Literally! Looks awesome Rhain. And that was an amazing and beautiful piece you shared.

A Moment
Written by: Rhain

I did not know her as most of you,
or paths but crossed so seldom,
but she seemed a light of cheer and joy,
and this I dedicate to them-

~

We take this moment, all of us,
for those who cannot share,
who will not see these fields again,
or share our heartfelt care.

We take this moment, all of us,
to dedicate to them,
a word, a thought, a memory,
A sibling, relative, a friend.

We now carry them within us,
and so as we, live on,
not a burden but companion,
until we too are gone.

We take this moment, all of us,
and from here where we may go,
this moment, ours, we give to them,
in this, our love, we show.

Angel loved helping those that were new, and when ESB joined our clan, he was no exception
Here he gives his words of rememeberance to her. Thanks Beast, she would have loved it!!

Performed by: ElSuperbeast0

I'm not gonna stand up here and pretend that I knew Hijiri like most of you have.
And I'm not going to pretend to be religious, a diplomat, or a poet.
But I will say that even in the short period that I did know her,
she was always the first to reach out,
make you feel welcome, and comfortable in your uneasy surroundings
and even that, in its miniscule way, made her an amazing person
And I'm glad I was here to meet her.
That is all.

In my humble opinion, I think Lunestra captured how we will all remember Angel.
it made me laugh, like she always did ^.^ (Also you left stage before I could capture a pic
and instead got a good look at your twins, I think she meant for me to take that screen XD

Performed by: Lunestra

The Angel I knew was a wonderfully impish character
party wiping us in FoG or Imperial Tomb
a deliciously horny pony was her strength
and her remarkable devilish humor always made my day

Shadowdancer: -groans at the pun she loved to put on us-

she truly touched all of our souls
and has become immortal in turn.

Sableye was surpised to find out Angel and he had the same circle of friends and yet never met.
I know she would have loved you Sab ^.^ Through us you DID meet her :D

Performed by: Sableye

I want to start off by saying that I didn't know Hijiri at all.
But by what everyone has said, it has made me sad, mad, and empty inside.
Empty, because I feel a lack of knowledge about her.
I feel like I lost a friend because she was a friend to many of my other friends.
I feel mad, because I'm going to miss her.
Even though I don't know her, I feel like a part of me has lost her.
I feel mad because I had many chances of knowing her
I could have talked to her in Ventrilo.
She was on many times, I didn't know if she was afk or not.
But I saw her and didn't bother going into the channel with her
because I didn't not know her and now I'm mad because
I missed the opportunity to meet her.
I'm sorry...

Zaphne thought your words were heartfelt. And so did I ^^ Thank you Sableye.

Shadowdancer had amazing memories to share and a beautiful poem.
I think this was an inspiring ending to an extraordinary Well!!

Performed by: Shadowdance

I will confess that I don't know Hijiri all that well, but I knew her as Lantoc's friend.
And whenever I saw Hijiri, she was always in Lantoc's company. And whenever I was in party
with her, oh the chaos, the fun, the delightful, hilarious death that we'd be threathened with
having two manic, delightful Summoners in the party. Ponies running opposite directions,
and returning with trains of monsters. Every party was fun. Every party, filled with teasing
funny pervy talk all meant in fun and good affection. One of the last parties we had with her,
we tormented Rhain and the tight fit of his robes. That is how I remember Hijiri as fun,
full of laughter, ready to help a good friend. I wish I had gotten to know her much better,
because it seems she is a well named Angel to all present. I regret not having the chance
to do so anymore. We also sahre today's memorial in honor of wulfric, our Mischievious Paladin.
Whose younger sister, Kelly passed away yesterday after a long fight with cancer. This poem
I dedicate to those who knew Hijiri well, loved her dearly and adored her. I dedicate it to a
sister much loved and cherished, for an absent friend. I am not as good with impromptu poetry
as Rhain is, but this one, I hope fits.

The Closed Door
By Theodosia Garrison

I never crossed your threshold with a grief
But that I went without it; never came
Heart hungry but you fed me, eased the blame,
And gave the sorrow solace and relief.

I never left you but I took away
The love that drew me to your side again
Through that wide door that never could remain
Quite closed between us for a little day.

Oh! Friend, who gave and conforted,who knew
So overwell the want of heart and mind,
Where may I turn to solace now, or find
Relief from this unceasing loss of you?

Be it for fault, for folly, or for sin,
Oh! terrible my penance, and most sore
To face the tragedy of that closed door
Whereby I pass and may not enter in.

-closes book and wipes eyes-
To all of us who knew her...

The end of the well is something Angel would have been proud of ^.^ We had nakedness and everything XD
Here read it your self:

ElSuperbeast0: im naked >.>
Sableye: ewww
Emirra: hehe naked orcs :D
Shadowdancer: naked orc... dancing with Sableye
Gestalt: Mm green flesh
Emirra: nom nom
ElSuperbeast0: ;D
Rhain: naked is ork formal wear isn't it?
Shadowdancer: she'd like that end

Yes Shadowdancer ^.^ she would indeed... she would indeed...

Sunday July 10th, the evening after Angel passed, we were all in heavy grind because it was double XP.
But the moment we found out, it was like time stopped and we paused leveling for many hours and held
and unofficial vigil for her that evening. Here is a screen of that day. Some of us removed weapons.
(and no one mention that she would have killed us for stopping during double XP >.< )

I know it's a small group, but the word had not fully been spread, and already we were there for you Angel!!

Lurking in here? Enjoying the Well and wishing to see it? Well come to Aria: Tuesday nights 9pm Eastern US time at the Fantasy Island.Some of us don't bite :P